ughh...

I know this probably sounds horrible but I'm just tired of everything right now. I absolutely hate coming to school every day & having people up in my space & pushing me around. I hate getting out of bed in the morning & honestly I'm getting really tired of my relationship. I look at all the other girl's baby dads & they're there for them & they actually support them & care. I look at my baby's dad & all he does is get mad at me. He yells at me for having cravings because I ask him to go eat with me. It's not even like I'm asking him to drive, it's my car & my gas I simply just don't want to go alone. I really don't have any friends besides Graison that i can talk to. & This is probably going to sound stupid but he used to have this look in his eyes when he looked at me & now that's gone. We barely talk anymore & if we do it's fighting. He used to send me long meaningful text messages & they would almost make me cry from how happy they made me & how sweet they were. Now when I see those text messages I cry because he doesn't do that anymore & I'm sad all the time & nothing goes right. I cry for no reason sometimes & he doesn't really seem to care at all. I mean a freakin' hug would be nice at least. He doesn't hug me or kiss me anymore really at all. We don't cuddle or anything & it's breaking my heart.. sometimes I feel like breaking up with him just so I don't have to be around him for awhile & maybe he'll realize what he has..